I wish i could say everything That i wanted too But i cant and i wont Make a song for u I wish i could Trust me i really would Lost in the woods Looking out for whats good (Hook) Eye grew up 2 quick Couldn't speak when i wanted When i leave the room Every urge keeps me haunted Feeling blue but still run like im sonic In my zone on the stage Knuckle up if ur on it Ill fly to the moon on a shroom heavy promise Robot grip on the mic Every strike will demolish Catch the drift if u can understand when im honest I exist with no hate in a trance with symphonics Existence is pain No chance hidden knowledge Still image of rain On the sand deadly process Feal spirits decay Out of hand not a problem Nothing to say Now i stand with my conflicts Stuck in a maze Blown away music hostage I Love what u made Dont throw away what u polished Its fucking 2 late ur a waste of a conscious A mess on a page seperate from the non sence Momma was anxiety Father taught me anger Sister wasn't around And brother was in danger Every friend either loves me or hates me Grippin my pen to defend what their always claiming Ive let alot of you down But i got u when i come up On point with the crown Posted up till da suns up I prayed for the day Too come an im unstuck Im posted like jesus Heart bleeds when the blood rushed Im messy distorted demented and hungry A chess piece important Presented so lovely Techniques recorded Setenced above me Locked in with boarders Messy but lucky Im gone with the wind In the city of sin Some say its the end I say its time 2 begin

My chemistry (Test) strange when the right chain of events happen in the wrong sequence Been broken to the point I believed I was beyond treatment Took me getting to my lowest to notice my flaws deepened Always been drawn to this but lately it's draws weakend Done with feeling like shit like after a long weekend For the wrong reasons. My morale is now all cheapened Dreams demons decisions fuck in 1 insane daily three-some failure for y'all to criticize is all im saving me from Nights wasted mikes wasted scared 2 confront what im facing I hate it. I play it. Its entirely too fucking draining How i can have it all and laugh it off I'm tired of explaining Nod to the beat of my own drum son not wired to their training Weather or not that's led me here its clear I'm in dire need of changing Dragons harder to catch than imagined and truth be told tired of chasing It. Tonight im replacing it. Done letting it make me sick When that disease whispers with pride I can proudly say to it ...bitch! (Ivory) Im Trying too keep chill But always get overheated It will all be revealed Due in time stolen secrets Everytime that we chill U can see every weakness I'm a monster u cant kill Overheads always sleepless Time is running out No time for walking now Separated from the pack But never fully falling out Got a brother in the city But we're barely talking now Guess I bring my demons with me Every time they spot me out A lot of people hate the person Before they even meet Words can help a person But they can also make you weak Heavy pride like an armor But even armor breaks in time Lightworker with a marker Its ain't hard to make it shine Strangers in the distance We hope that heart is pure Whatever u are feeling I just hope u feel secure Fulfilled with persistence The endless cycle never ending Thankful for existence All around seldom bending ..... (Test) some say its weak of me to wear my heart on my sleeve/ though I do it frequently, sorry. cant pardon my BEIN'/ naive he seems like he always lost in a dream Voices ain't mellow out I've just learned 2 conquer the screams the life I know you hear me, I still clearly need your help/ from my heart so sincerely like this I have never felt/ That's why I'm trying to regain patience even though I see it going Made a mess of my situation and am just learning to own it. To grown to continue wishing to listen I've given up on hoping Hard to Keep it together when everything from within is broken But I feel different seeing as how it's grip loosened up a shit ton Can hit a home run every time but the moment u miss one You get spun. Get strung. Hang on to get hung. To vulnerable get stung. Be unprepared get stunned. cheers to the death of me what you have here's what's left of me shed negative energy tonight damn right I rest my chemistry (Ivory) Why should i break my back For people who wouldn't cut u slack If u needed it 2 breathe 2 survive that final gasp Bending over backwards Fractured until that spinal tap Broke the contract leave my name on like i signed ur cast Lost myself along the way While trying to find my path Spaceship out of gas I guess its time 2 crash Epic on these beats everyday stay grinding fast Weaponry on a page on display Designed 2 last Im hateful when you love me Always ugly when a songs deep Beautiful and lucky Lying til ur all above me Addicted like a junkie Angry eyes always grumpy Clean but dirty Finding comfort when im grunge gy Angel wings devil horns god is waiting where its sunny Roll a philly for the dead Acid bath burning money I am here with nothing left Writing raps to every drum beat Still kick it with broken legs Bathed in sweat tired body

(Shiloh Dynasty] I know you so well (I know you, girl) I mean, I can do better than he can I've been pretty— I know you so well(background loop) All this guilt just watch me drown I let go and It fell down I feel pain just to hold on My sweet despair cant do no wrong I don't care just writing songs Left alone I been hiding long Going nowhere Been writing too much I am too scared I shouldn't do drugs Not fully there I never grew up I need to share Before I blow up Climbing the stairs Hoping they know us I'm not prepared And I am so done I give up now I cannot go on Sleep on the ground My stress has grown strong My sweetest sounds In-depth you'll respond I'll say it proud Until your so gone... I know you know that I like u so much like no one else does until I destruct What's bonded broke up We acted out and watched it close up acted so tuff I am a pattern lost in sound waves Making these sounds until the ground breaks Ran out of room but then I found space I dive in quick and then A cloud rains Didn't mean to quit Until I found pain Life is a bitch And You're her blind date Wish I could fix it I am too late Didn't mean to risk it Put on my clown face Addiction calling I love to cloud chase Pain hurts so good I need that loud bass Queen take my hand before I downgrade Death next to u somehow it sounds great .... Chorus: XXXTENTACION] I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb I wanted die But then I got my babies Saw them in myself And life got crazy Self medicate And pretend I'm lazy Look how bad Good nights can break deep Told my dad No one can save me If my daughters cry U better pay me If you're not giving Then you are taking I shouldn't even Be explaining Got stabs in my back But I've held a knife too We all been hurt We all been lied two I'm not perfect Downward spiral Falling Upwards Move in cycles. The Pain does help as a reminder Like u lost your life and you'll never find her Web of Lies I'm like a spider You brighten my nights up like my lighter You cut yourself I hold my pain in You ask for help I'm always faded Opened book Highlighted statements Smoking Kush Lifes always changing Hold or push Looking all jaded Overbooked and stimulated Wish I could get you celebrated U can't protect whos dead or waiting need some leg room until today ends Got time to help you But I hate waiting I can't save you Life is sacred Two the rescue Keeping it basic I've been where you are It's no walk in the park I've have all my scars Still sketched in my heart x2 Chorus: XXXTENTACION] I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb